I'm currently having a depressive episode. I'm worried about my future concerning money and family. It hit me that I'm 27 stuck at 8.5k a year as a part time school cleaner, scared that my autism and the traits I inherited as a result (combined with my anxiety and depression issues) will make a full-time job unbearable since I'm only good at video games, cleaning and singing (but have major stage fright) and don't have many strengths as a result (other than high empathy and kindness from other peoples accounts), the fact I live in a small village with very few opportunities and ever increasing house prices, I'm scared to drive because I get migraines (both from triggers and by complete random that will render me mostly blind) and with all that it's making my life dream of starting a family and fathering a child of my own seem more and more unlikely since I'm scared I both won't be able to afford having a child or won't be able to mentally handle having a child (or both).

I hope I can't get through this, seeing this post does make things a bit brighter