xPlus2Minus1 t1_j9ysky4 wrote on February 25, 2023 at 3:48 PM

Reply to comment by PristineIntention176 in [image] You never have to do today again by Ariledweight11

Thank you, that's extremely mature of you to say, very very few people in this world have the emotional strength to acknowledge and accept that level of someone else's pain in the way that you just did. I truly appreciate it.

Please don't worry about me too much. If I don't find peace in life, know that I will find it in death, and to me in life, that is a relief. Just thinking about it lowers my blood pressure. I feel more calm just knowing there's a way out. If I first my eyes and picture it, it's the most genuine smile I can muster-- the sadness is thinking of those left behind. But at they've told me for so many years, I need to put myself first, and it seems like that will end up being what that means.

PristineIntention176 t1_ja1f4qo wrote on February 26, 2023 at 3:01 AM

I hope not. I hope you can find happiness in life. Or at least peace. I'm not qualified to advise you, certainly not to judge. Please think of those that love you. I don't know if you're a parent, but you're certainly a child of someone. I've always heard parents say, "I'd die for my child! Or I'd kill for my child!" And I always think, sometimes the hardest thing is to live for your child. Don't know if this relates, don't know why I said it. I wish you the best.