Sounds like you’re doing pretty well. Stable job, stable relationship with a like minded partner, you don’t mention death or economical problems. I’m beyond mild apathy and laziness there don’t seem to be any red flags in what you write. Stay out of social media, you set your own goals. Sit down every night and speak with your partner about where you guys want to be in eight years, how you want your life to look like.

P.s. 12 rules for life by Jordan Peterson is a game changer. The audiobook Will get you through it easier and require less concentration than reading. I will get your foot in the door of change.