If you crave the normalcy/consistency/passivity and are happy with it then there’s nothing wrong.

Some people are goal driven and they feel fulfilled when they achieve a goal or even some people get the high from the work leading up to the goal. Some people crave and are raised in lifestyles where there’s routine and a constant.

The depression might make you feel dissatisfaction with how things are but only you know what you really want.

Your post gives me the feels that you don’t think your life is good enough. But there are tons of valuable and special things I can see in the post.

You graduated HS (some people don’t) You’ve worked at the same place for 7 years (hello, SO valuable, admirable as some people can’t even keep a job for two years - you’re valuable to your employers and you hold yourself to a “I show up” standard which you’d think is common but it’s not actually, this is a you trait that will follow in anything you do) You have a hobby (okay dormant) but one no one forced you to do or pressured you into! You have love in your life! Some special person who you love to feel in your arms and who loves you back!!

If you feel guilt though. It’s okay to let the guilt drive you if you can channel it into doing something at that very moment. If you let the guilt linger and spread over every moment of your life, that’s unproductive. I also find it I make very vague lists when I feel guilt like “working out every Thursday” rather than “working out right now, or at 6pm bc right now I have something going on” I usually feel more guilt at not following through