Just got into my dream school but when I first started the process I wanted to back out immediately because I didn’t want to have to tell people I didn’t get in. But my new years resolution’s last year was to do things that scared me and I did and I succeeded. Looking at it now even if I had not got in I would have gotten farther than I thought I would have. So as hard and unhelpful as it sounds really don’t let yourself stop you from getting the things you want!