You need some Stoicism in your life. If you want to crowbar yourself into a better person, there is no better way than through the greats. If it was good enough for Zeno, Epictetus, Seneca, and Marcus Aurelius. It ought to be good enough for you.

I watch this guys channel daily to get me pumped to own my shit.

https://www.youtube.com/@DailyStoic

Watch this one every morning...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pTUXgO1u_OI