Please know that you are valuable and that one setback doesn't need to be catastrophic for you. Your single mindedness has served you in pursuing your goal, but remember that there are many other ways to reach your dreams. You have conquered so many challenges already. If you can look beyond how u feel right now, u may be able to see other great things in your future. Just because things haven't turned out how u thought they would, it's not the end of the world . So many other life adventures await you, If you just give yourself the time to see new possibilities to achieve your dream and/or incorporate some other dreams. You are important. Please be kind to yourself. I hope that you heal from feeling this way, so you can move on a prosper.