The part of us that we fear having uncovered and exposed to others, so we shame and deny it out of existence? The part that truly wants this, but not that, but had been told what it “should” want instead and so we try to uphold that standard. For some people, that part of themselves is so deeply pushed down and ignored that they forgot it exists, and then they wonder why it is so hard to engage with life, and hate themselves for not being able to do what they “should be” doing, and it’s like, this is someone else’s life you are trying to live, that’s why.