I’m having the worst day in over half my life, over something ultimately within my control. But I feel so stressed, lost, and hopeless.

I haven’t given up yet, but it’s hard not to conclude that hard work, honesty, decency, responsibility, and compassion simply aren’t as valuable as I’d like them to be.

But I’ve decided decided to make some changes today, sacrificing things that I really want in order to keep my sanity. It sucks feeling this way, like no matter what I do, things will never get better. Maybe a change of lifestyle will do me some good.