A lot of anti-vaxxers also say they're not anti vax and then come up with a reason why the specific anti vax instance makes sense. Thing is it is a moving goal post. I'm not sure your sincerity on the matter and I'm not here to argue it, but I have to say most of my anti-vax acquaintances (not friends, forget that) start with or out right say stuff very similar to what you just posted. I'm really not meaning to sound critical of you, just pointing out my experience and how it looks/sounds.