I have so many complex emotions about him - he was an excellent provider, yet flawed in his handling of emotions and connecting with his children. He had the capacity to be very kind, yet rarely chose to show it.

Even at 40 years old now, I find I don’t quite understand what made him this weird mishmash of qualities.

I’m happy you have fond memories, I try to be that kind of father for my son now. I take the good memories I have of my dad and try to amplify those… all while avoiding the things I hated.