I totally empathize with your situation. Back in the early 90’s my Dr dad was giving me non-prescribed Zoloft and Wellbutrin to help with my actual depression. Then I spiraled down and tried suicide. Now years later Drs warn not to prescribe to youth due to suicide being a major risk.

I’m talking a real deal Dr who you implicitly trust and have a good understanding with. Not an overworked school worker or doting dad.

Yes, drugs can fuck up your life, but they can save it, too.

Now it’s low dose gummies and heart medication. We all have a balance we are reaching in our body. It may take a few tries to get it right.