I get the sense you are not a trained artist and just enjoy painting and getting emotions out that way? If so, keep learning and playing with things like brushes and I’m sure you’ll find you can also integrate elements like painting with your hands if that feels right for the piece.

You seem to have a good natural sense of form and space, as well as an ability to communicate a concept (if more crudely here). You are set up to make some really cool stuff and grow a lot as an artist if you wanted to learn more about tools and technique.